training day

 after being the nomadic neophyte for almost a month… now, i am seeing myself in a whole new light… a whole new persona… in heels and business attire if you please…

we, myself and fellow trainees are being groomed as to date to be the best employees - at the very least…

first stop was personality development, well, more like charm school or something like that. taught us how to walk, sit, stand - the prim and proper way… more like Victorian times, back when ladies were still considered ladies, well, you know what i mean… even taught us how to shake hands properly and of course, table manners/etiquette… and how to apply make-up… a bit overwhelming but the important thing was that i learned a lot… i still am hating high heeled shoes by the way, flats is still the best way to go… nothings beats comfy!

right now, we are in our second week of the first course of our training… a bit complicated but so far i am still with the flow… at least i am part of the 90% of the class that is not having a hard time understanding the lessons… LESSONS! damn! i feel like i’m back at school, although i never wore business attire with full make-up on and hair tied up in a bun! nevertheless, it is fun when i get the lessons right and less mistakes during hands-on exercises. 

but the schedule is a big adjustment for me… i am wide awake when the clock strikes 5 in the morning, and it takes me an hour to get ready… and then the long commute to "school" can be a bit stressful! coz classes start at 7:30! just imagine myself, walking along a busy street in make up and business attire and worse, it is full blast summer! i am hating the summer heat!!! waah…

yup! life is hard… but we all have to make sacrifices… all for the sake of our future…

so what do we do to unwind and not feel all the pressure and stress? hmm… well, camwhorin’ of course! we all have that in common! we just click away!

i apologize…

i admit, my posts are not your average blogs…

reading my blogs is like taking a peek inside my mind… 

some blogs make sense, some blogs doesn’t…

writing or blogging to me is an outlet… a passion…

i am thankful to all those who took time to read my thoughts, my opinions…

i am grateful for all those who even took time to post comments…

making blogs has its perks and its downsides…

to those who got offended in any way with my blogs… 

i apologize… 

Buckcherry - Sorry (Buckcherry)

missing home

how long was it since i left home and went on to tackle this journey that entails independent living and braving on the odds? how long? i can barely remember…

it has been years… two years i guess… damn… am i that old? it’s sooo sad…

i guess, even though you’ve been away for so long, you will still get to experience that ‘homesick’ feeling… i miss being the baby… i miss being pampered… simply put, i miss being a kid! haha! in some ways, i wish i can just be back at home, back to my school years where i only worry about getting those straight As… where my life was just so simple… how i wish i could just go back to those times… can i? can i?

i miss my brother… my personal chef, my confidante, my jester, my best friend all rolled into one… i miss all his dishes he used to cook for us… i miss our bonding moments… i miss our laugh trips… i miss our holiday grocery shopping… i miss our sound trips… i miss our rooftop escapes… i just miss talking to him…

i miss my eldest brother too… i miss his sense of humor… i miss my mama…i miss listening to all her complaints about my papa… i miss my papa… i miss seeing him tease my mama… i miss my dogs… i miss playing with them — my stress relievers!!! i miss my bed! i miss everything about home… damn it! i’m going senti!

don’t you ever get that feeling that you just wanna get away from it all? just be alone and enjoy the time being with yourself? i don’t get to that anymore… the only time i get to be with myself is when it is time to sleep… pity… pity… i am indeed living a fast-paced life… do i get to enjoy it? the answer is yes. i try to enjoy it as often as i could with my friends… how i wish i could enjoy it with my family too… i mean, physically enjoy it with them… sad to say, we only get to enjoy it whenever i go home during  the holidays… i wish to spend more time with them… but you see… it is not as easy as it seems… if i could i would go home every month but a lot of factors hinder me from doing that… maybe years from now, i can finally achieve it…

i just miss home… i terribly miss my family… i miss some real friends back in naga as well… 

the nomadic neophyte

i still feel like i’m back in my ojt days in college, which isn’t that long ago by the way…

adjusting to a new environment, to a new myriad of people with different personalities… i can barely recall their names, i guess i’m just bad with names… still, they are a happy bunch. everyone has been really helpful and made me feel at ease, approachable even. well, at least the ones i approach…

will i be able to miss them? well, i guess not… haha! sad to say, i haven’t really bonded with them, well, except for Paul, a fellow neophyte. he likes to tease me with loads of forms with attachments whenever it is near five in the afternoon… at this point, i don’t like doing OT but he insists on having me do it… coz he has done several OT already… nyarr!!! haha!!! but i never did OT… hehe! nevertheless, they have been really kind to me.

i guess my days as a nomadic neophyte will soon come to an end… the newspaper will definitely miss me coz i’m the only one who takes time to read it from cover to cover, while i await where i will be assigned yet again… you see, i occupy a new and different cubicle everyday… the longest cubicle stay i had was two days… imagine that! the restroom will miss me too! coz i often visit it whenever i am assigned in a zero degree temperature cubicle… i feel hypothermia sinking in… and i need to pee often! haha! i will for sure miss the escalator that operates only on monday mornings! at least i got to use it twice! haha! i still am hating stairs/staircases… but i guess, it is a good form of exercise coz i always have my butt glued to the chair during office hours…

tomorrow, i will no longer be a nomadic neophyte… but a hungry trainee… hungry for food and information! i hope my instructors are great teachers… i heard some of them are really strict! goodness! i am wishing myself the best of luck! 

adieu my lil nook…

i’ll finally say au revoir to my own little nook… where i find solace and freedom… apart from all the work at the mezzanine… i’ll say goodbye…

as i drank the last drops of my watery juice, i don’t know why but i like buying my lunch at the same place… i took a final glance at this silver table… you have been good to me… you were always free whenever i come to you during lunch, it is as if you were always reserving this place for me… weird… but i’d like to think that it is so…  i have always come to you for the past two weeks or so, and i couldn’t be grateful enough… thank you so much!

so now, i’ll extend my stay for a few more minutes and do my blogging the old-fashioned way — the pen and paper way.

i hope i get to have my own nook/special place in the training area… where i will be shipped out tomorrow. i’ll wish myself luck and hope i’ll do well in my two-month long training…

so, au revoir my nook… i’ll see you again… i hope… you have served me well… i am forever grateful.

yeah, yeah… it must be weird having myself write an entry about my own lil nook, but i consider this an ode to my special place… i have grown to love my nook and i’ll miss it for sure… it’s a bit sad…