just because i’m bored

i was cleaning up my bag when i came up with a piece of paper that contains my doodles and blog snippets from those boring days at the workplace.. come to think of it.. i do have a lot of those moments at the workplace.. hmmm..

-dated a few months ago-

-FRET-

worried still, qualms overheard, woes unreal, nightmares feared

as darkness fell, a shiver down my spine, feeling like hell, a suppressed whine

i dare to shout, but tears have fallen, what is this about, gloom overtaken

time aghast, misery rising, unspoken spell passed, morbidity singing

dread encompassing, deafening silence roared, sickening thuds ringing, FUCK IT! I'M BORED! 

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-dated a few months back-

-BORED-

in this dimly lit room, engulfed in quiet bliss, put on my overused headset, drowning my woes,

in random music, tunes tickling my ears, humming to myself, mouthing the words.. lip syncing.. 

a tap on my shoulder as i bobbed my head in rhythm to the music, looking behind my back

i found myself reeled back to reality — to the workplace…

damn! it's way too boring! misery strikes again.. i would likely doze off if it weren't for my music!

oh well, life's a bitch! ain't that right?

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-dated on a misery monday some months ago-

-MONDAY SICKNESS-

monday sickness kicking in so damn hard! that it, as a matter of fact, hurts! ouch! makes me wish that i should have stayed home and slept the whole damn day! i should be lying around on the bed and catching up on lost sleep..

i ache for the bed, the pillows, the blanket.. i long to doze off as i watch television.. drowning my woes for a few hours of sleep..

it is way too boring.. i pity myself.. i could be doing something productive instead of torturing myself during idle moments.. i'm dizzy and i feel sleepy.. stifling a yawn.. what else can i do?

aaaaarrrggghhhh!! i hate this! i really hate this! music as my refuge helps only a little bit..

if boredom can kill, then i would have been a mere memory now.. a free spirit roaming around..

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-dated august 14, 2007-

the date… which reminds me, today's the month-sary of the hunnies — ariane and raphii.. oh well..

my thoughts linger… last night was fun… me and ariane sang our lungs out, a mini concert, i believe, at unit 2108… haha… unleashing our vocal prowess in the process, i wonder if we were good… hehe… our two spectators, namely joyz and bax barely noticed… they were busy watching CSI on tv… haha…

it was fun… loads of fun! i wanna do it again! oohh… we're gonna clean the house tonight… shit! i hate it! 

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-dated OCT. 30, 2007-

misery unfolds… it is slowly dawning on me that i'm starting to hate my job… yes, i get to travel but my job has its downsides… i just had enough, i mean… i have put up with a lot of things already and i'm losing patience! being an underdog doesn't necessarily mean enduring all the crap! duh?! i'm not your freakin' slave! and i won't always be around to absorb all the blame! i'm leaving soon and you all can't stop me anymore! rarr!

it even doesn't help being the youngest in the office, i mean, they don't take me seriously… i've tried… believe me, i've tried to get along with the 'gurang-ers' but they don't consider any of my opinion… it's like i'm a ghost… so there you go… if all of you can't seem to see my importance, then, to heck to all of you! i will for sure miss some of you, but that's all there is to it.. i'll be glad to leave… good riddance to all of you!

thanks for the memories! 

there are times that i'd rather work at home… where i can really think.. where there's no one that would eye me down… i'd really like to think that we all are equal but others still think that they're superior and i can't really blame them… but… hello?! you all went through what i'm going through, and it's not an excuse that you give me a hard time since you've been through hell when you were my age! damn! (sigh…)

i wanna go home! i'm in freaking hell! help me! save me! wait, i can save myself pala… i'm not the one that needs saving… they are… rarr! 

embassy clubbin’

october 27, 2007 (saturday) 

and so the hotties took over the city again..

this time with two additional hotties visiting us — fellow hotties in the city..

yep! deejay has finally graced us with her presence after a long long time.. and we finally got to meet ate aileen's sister from cebu– kat! with bax back in nagaland, one hottie short, nevertheless we all had loads of fun!

embassy club isn't really feet and legs friendly since there seem to be a shortage of sitting area.. oh well.. people do come there to partey and to dance.. not exactly lounge.. there's always a first time right?! haha!! drinks were good too!! although we had to gulp down our drinks quickly because of the liquor ban imposed in preparation for the upcoming barangay elections.. bummer!!

oh well, we didn't let that hinder us from having a fun time with everyone! we got to see some old classmates and friends as well.. who would have thought we'd bump into them at embassy?! of all places!! oh my!! it's a rather small world don't you think?! 

i'm glad that deej and kat had a great time with us! til next time girls!! **hugs!!**

her errness is here

yup! deejay finally graced us with her presence.. yippee! we were all excited! we were supposed to hit the club on a friday night but we finally decided to have a drinking session instead at the condo! courtesy of raphii! thanks raphii!! deej arrived at around 11pm i think and we went straight down to the chika part! haha!

with us were our two new buddies: ms. artic vodka & peach and the ever popular ms. margarita king! yup! drinking session and chikahan moments til the wee hours of the morning.. we adjourned at around 3:30am.. love it!

so now.. ariane and deej are still dozing off in dreamland.. we'll hit greenhills later and hit the clubs tonight! par-tey!! wooohooo!!!  

spa moment

so i've been feeling bummed out.. pressured.. even stressed for that matter for the whole week.. i swear it felt like i aged 10 more years in a matter of three days!

so ariane invited me to go to bizzie lizzie, a spa situated a few buildings away from our condo.. it'll be her treat since she's getting a pedicure.. i had a foot spa! yey! it's really relaxing! i loved it! made me forget the pressure and stress i was feeling for the entire week..

thanks ariane!! next time is on me!! 

hell week

yes.. it's a freakin' hell week.. i've been sent off to tarlac this monday (oct 22) just to oversee things since it will be handled by a new coordinator, wait, make that two coordinators.. simple job right?

well it turned out, it wasn't.. it was freakin hell since day 1! people overwhelmed me with a lot of concerns which isn't really that big of a problem.. of course, i gave out, even suggested counter measures as solutions to the "concern/ problem".. but noooo.. it has to be done their way.. hell! i can be stubborn but not that kind of stubborn! and to think they're older than me! duh?! they'd always insist to have it their way even if it isn't possible! the more i argue with them, the more it gets worse.. so what do i have to do? and they're all blaming me for it! like duh?! reality check guys?! don't you think that your mere stupidity is the problem?! and to think you're older than me! give me a break!!

and it doesn't help that my own supervisor is suspicious that i was to blame.. although she didn't say it outright, it was implied.. yeah.. blame it all on me! i'm responsible for everything that has happened! i even killed lapulapu for crying out loud!! duh?! <sarcasm taking over>

is it my fault that i work with people whose got a lot of concerns? whose so stubborn that you could have wished you're debating with a five year old kid? 

yep.. a glimpse of the life i'm living.. it isn't always a bed of roses guys! it gets worse.. 

i had to stay there for two days.. as i was about ready to leave, another bomb dropped in on me.. i can't leave unless everything is settled! fuckin shit! i screamed! i cursed every word known to man! i ranted! i swear, my roommate could have been deaf at that moment.. why? you may ask why i'm ranting.. it's because i didn't bring extra clothes..  and the fact that the people i'm working with are so difficult to get along with.. and their fuckin concerns! i hate it! i've gone mental for a few seconds there.. but i could care less..

i had to stay for another day.. so i thought things will be sorted out.. but i was wrong.. it was all the same thing.. same concerns.. stupid i know! they like blowing things out of proportions!

so there you go.. i don't wanna go back there again.. ever!! they'd have to kill me first!!