the sweet b*tch is back

contrary to popular belief that my blogger self went into hiding and seemingly went on to finding herself is complete bullsh*t if you ask me. i do not go around signing off and looking for myself coz i am not a radio station that needs signing off nor i am lost to be searched for.

i went into hiatus.. yes… that’s true. but why? you might ask, well, let’s just say i have given my haters time to savor their moment of victory. you see, it is pointless arguing with people you don’t even know and you don’t even see. people with their pseudo-names, acting high and mighty, telling you what you should and should not do.

if you all wanna comment on something that is fine with me, everyone is entitled to his/her own opinion, and i completely respect that. but you all have to know that this is MY blog. i can do whatever i want with it, if you can’t take what i have to say on matters that i blog about then that’s not my problem. after all, everyone, and i mean, everyone is entitled to his/her own opinion. and by everyone, i mean, myself included! then why can’t i have my own opinion?

i write because i love to write, same goes with blogging. it is convenient for me since i am often times infront of a computer. blogging is my outlet, my sponge which absorbs all my thoughts and my emotions, opinions included. i do not write nor blog to please anyone. i blog for myself.

again, if you do not want what you are reading in my blog site then by all means STOP reading. it is just that simple. so let us not complicate things shall we? let me blog in peace! 

first impressions

out of plain boredom, a day before the lingering exam, we all decided to give out first impressions for each and everyone. i am not the one who instigated such activity so i am not the perpetrator this time.

our class comprises of a myriad of personalities. i, on the other hand, am a bit on the reserved side. i guess, whenever i meet new people, i don’t divulge a lot of information about myself unless i know for sure that person can be trusted or not.

it is a no holds barred kind of thing. and i’m glad to say that i chose my words so as not to offend anyone. in short, nicer comments came out. see… i can be nice too! 

my classmates commented on how prim and proper i was… really? i don’t seem to notice. do i look like i went to boarding school or something?! hahaha! and since i am from a different department, i just joined their class for the training. on our very first day of training, i came in later than all of them. when i entered the room, they all thought i was lost or something. some even mimicked what i did the very first day when i entered the room! it was funny! 

but one of my classmates did something unexpected… one commented on thinking that one of our classmates was mentally retarded!

nung una talaga akala ko… yung parang… sabi ko sa sarili ko, may pagka-mongoloid ata ‘tong taong toh…

i could not believe my ears! everyone heard! i could not contain my laughter! good thing i was seated at the back row so they couldn’t see me laughing. i felt sorry for my classmate who got such first impression. but you see, if you got nothing nice to say, just don’t say it right? but then again, it was one’s first impression on that particular person… no holds barred remember? we really can’t blame them right?

top-notched?

hell week is finally coming to an end!

i don’t know if i should feel relieved or what. 

you see, just this week, our instructor made an unexpected announcement: i was top one of our first training class (highest grade among the class)!!! [clap! clap!]

top one?! imagine that! i should be proud of myself right? but, such honor puts a bit of a burden on my shoulders, not to mention all the added pressure of doing entirely well at the next one since  everyone is expecting a lot from me and not to screw everything up! my classmates already turn to me for answers and that just adds a whole lot more pressure! see? pressure… my classmates think i know all the answers! i long for the day when we were all just equals… when none of them knew i was doing fairly well at training.

i am not confident at this second training class for the sole reason that it is difficult! yes, believe me! now i know why a lot of trainees failed this class! it is confusing! and our instructor is even more confusing than the training module itself! i have nothing against our instructor, i believe she tried her best to teach us everything, but then again, we just ended up more confused than ever. good thing our instructor for the first part of this second training class took over. i believe i was enlightened after she explained to us in detail all the confusing parts. so now, we all love her!

now with this second training class, i am not entirely sure. i think i just completely understood everything at the last hour before our exams! i do hope i did well in that exam. my goal was to perfect it [i want to be top one again in this class! sue me for aiming high!]. i know i am killing myself for thinking such, but you see, it is motivation! i think it worked! haha! but results are not yet in til next week. so we have the whole long weekend to contemplate.

i do hope and pray i pass! i badly need this job!