missing home

how long was it since i left home and went on to tackle this journey that entails independent living and braving on the odds? how long? i can barely remember…

it has been years… two years i guess… damn… am i that old? it’s sooo sad…

i guess, even though you’ve been away for so long, you will still get to experience that ‘homesick’ feeling… i miss being the baby… i miss being pampered… simply put, i miss being a kid! haha! in some ways, i wish i can just be back at home, back to my school years where i only worry about getting those straight As… where my life was just so simple… how i wish i could just go back to those times… can i? can i?

i miss my brother… my personal chef, my confidante, my jester, my best friend all rolled into one… i miss all his dishes he used to cook for us… i miss our bonding moments… i miss our laugh trips… i miss our holiday grocery shopping… i miss our sound trips… i miss our rooftop escapes… i just miss talking to him…

i miss my eldest brother too… i miss his sense of humor… i miss my mama…i miss listening to all her complaints about my papa… i miss my papa… i miss seeing him tease my mama… i miss my dogs… i miss playing with them — my stress relievers!!! i miss my bed! i miss everything about home… damn it! i’m going senti!

don’t you ever get that feeling that you just wanna get away from it all? just be alone and enjoy the time being with yourself? i don’t get to that anymore… the only time i get to be with myself is when it is time to sleep… pity… pity… i am indeed living a fast-paced life… do i get to enjoy it? the answer is yes. i try to enjoy it as often as i could with my friends… how i wish i could enjoy it with my family too… i mean, physically enjoy it with them… sad to say, we only get to enjoy it whenever i go home during  the holidays… i wish to spend more time with them… but you see… it is not as easy as it seems… if i could i would go home every month but a lot of factors hinder me from doing that… maybe years from now, i can finally achieve it…

i just miss home… i terribly miss my family… i miss some real friends back in naga as well…