give me a SIGN!

**warning: mahaba-habang pagbabasa ahead**

After that momentous one-day processing down to the job offer at 10pm at the very least, with a fairly promising package and energy-powered bright future at an international bank, I asked, even prayed for a sign if this is indeed the career for me. I have already announced my resignation at my present job and I’m currently preparing the needed requirements. At this point, I am still at a crossroad and I am slowly pushed to insanity… and just yesterday, I am determined to go through with this decision. Go for the energy-powered bright future and be with the likes of Vampire Lestat and Count Dracula! (It is a night job by the way)… I also know that it would provide me career growth, I may start from an entry-level position but I’m not gonna be choosy in that aspect. If working internationally would be the incentive/benefit of all the hard work, then it’s fine with me! After all, it’s either that or none at all… if you know what I mean. Of course the family is very supportive, never mind if I work on weekends or on holidays, as long as I will be happy, then I should go for it!

Still, I am a bit apprehensive… I know I can take on the challenge but I am exactly not sure if I’ll be happy… I won’t know until I get there… and experience it for myself. Of course, if it is a choice between my present job and that soon-to-be job, I’d choose (without a freaking doubt) the latter. I am no longer happy here (present job) and I feel my brain getting stagnant as each day passes! It’s like doing my OJT back at Naga! Haha! I hate being unproductive and it’s driving me mad! So there… wooozzaaah!

Last night, I still prayed. I am at an abyss… don’t ask me why but it’s just what I’m feeling lately. It is so confusing and I’m having a migraine… moving along, I specifically asked the higher power for a sign! To help me assert my impending decision of accepting formally the job offer of the international bank… and I dozed off.

Morning came, and nothing out of the ordinary happened. If there were signs, I barely noticed because: number one, I am running late as I quickly paced along Kamuning Road; number two, I hated the bystanders along the road who had nothing else to do except be their maniac selves, so I concentrated on my fast paced-walking; and lastly, I was busy planning what I would have to do for the entire day (which is not so many by the way). 

After having lunch with my freelance co-workers, I remembered I needed to pay for the top I ordered at multiply. So I headed for the bank, quick stop at the office to grab my trusty umbrella since it was drizzling a bit. There I was, my second trip to the bank (the first trip was to deposit just half of the amount of the top, as stated in her site, but then it turned out I can have it fully paid since it has stocks on hand! I wasted another 50 bucks for the transfer! Rarr!), my phone started to play ANTM’s theme (my current ring tone), I had it in silent mode since I know cellphones are not allowed in banks… but there was the call again… persistent… so I answered… never mind if I get scolded! I was multi-tasking! Doing the transaction with the bank teller and at the same time talking on the phone…

It turned out, the manager of a certain department in PAL was wondering if I was still considering a job with them. In confusion, I asked what position was I being considered for? It has been a month since my panel interview and having a lot in my mind, I just needed to ask. I guess it slipped my mind… it was the MRA position (Membership Relations Associate) wherein I would be dealing with the Mabuhay Miles members or frequent flyers of PAL.

All senses came to a halt and then quickly boosted back! A lot of things were running in my head! My brain cells took flight and I asked when the interview would be. The caller still can’t give me a definite time since it has yet to be scheduled. I know my future with PAL is something I have dreamt since after graduation and I quickly failed miserably… not because I am incompetent, but my lungs needed some rest. So right now, the only dilemma I am worrying about is that, am I medically fit to take on that job? I know I feel healthy but that’s not for me to decide… the medical examination will…

I asked her (the manager) how many candidates were there? Because I know for a fact that they only have one slot for the position, and I am also considering another job offer. I stand corrected, there were now two slots. She asked me again if I wanted the job or not so she could endorse me for an interview with the AVP. Not wanting to resist and because I also want that job, I said yes. She said she’ll call me back for the interview schedule.

My mind was racing, I do not know what to do! I quickly sent my friends a text message about my dilemma… I needed advice! My friend, Ariane, called. I told her the news and she was ecstatic! She also works at PAL and they were not aware of this latest development. As the friend that she is, her advice was simple: Go for the one that I really want and where l will grow (career-wise)…

It must have been a sign! Ano ba talaga Lord? Sa PAL na nga ba? O sa JPMorgan Chase Bank? Either way, if it is for me, then it is for me…

I was driving myself insane since the requirements for the international bank should be passed within this week, and I’m not sure I can wait for another week or month for that interview with PAL! Knowing PAL, matagal-tagal na hintayan na naman itoh!

At that moment, I am hoping for a miracle! Then she called back… I have an interview with the AVP scheduled for tomorrow…  that must be THE sign!

I maybe be creeped out by all the developments taking place today… but, I have my future to worry about and this is, as Joyz had said in her text message, a BIG LEAP! Things happen for a reason… And, as Ariane had said, A RISK that I have to take… it’s all about taking risks and reaping rewards after!

I just want a secure and happy future… so… goodluck SELF! Kick some AVP ass tomorrow! Rock that interview!