BETTER OFF INDEED

And there I was… fighting the boredom and searching the internet with connecting flights from Manila to Toronto, which is by the way not for me but for my boss. All of a sudden I’m a travel agent again. Good thing my best friend works for a travel agency so I didn’t have much problem. It just so happens that my good friend, K, who is now residing at California is actually on line! We did the usual “how are you’s” and stuff like that… but what really got my blood boiling was our discussion of the ex-barkada’s annual Christmas party… I’ll share our conversation here… (I edited it for some certain reasons, for anonymity maybe?):
 

K (1/22/2008 2:22:59 PM): nag-apod palan ako kina Y kang party ta… kitang 3 nina J ang absent

P (1/22/2008 2:23:40 PM): kelan naman yung party?

K (1/22/2008 2:24:01 PM): dec. 30th yata

K (1/22/2008 2:24:18 PM): didn’t they tell you the date of the party?

P (1/22/2008 2:24:27 PM): no…

K (1/22/2008 2:24:41 PM): what?????

P (1/22/2008 2:24:44 PM): as in i told M na i’ll be back on the 29th

P (1/22/2008 2:24:57 PM): no text message or whatever

K (1/22/2008 2:24:57 PM): i thought u knew the date of our xmas party… oh man!

P (1/22/2008 2:25:03 PM): no…

P (1/22/2008 2:25:09 PM): as in… o well…

P (1/22/2008 2:25:17 PM): I’m not part of the group nga pala

P (1/22/2008 2:25:22 PM): haha

K (1/22/2008 2:25:24 PM): akala ko, kaya you weren’t there coz you weren’t able to make it, to attend our party…

P (1/22/2008 2:25:28 PM): nagtaka pa tayo di ba?

P (1/22/2008 2:25:35 PM): what?

K (1/22/2008 2:25:36 PM): they didn’t invite you? oh man!

P (1/22/2008 2:25:42 PM): no… i was just at home

P (1/22/2008 2:25:55 PM): i guess you can say that.. i wasn’t invited.. hahaha

P (1/22/2008 2:25:58 PM): i love it!

P (1/22/2008 2:26:04 PM): see…

P (1/22/2008 2:26:15 PM): makes me think tuloy…

K (1/22/2008 2:26:24 PM): akala ko sinabihan ka ninda…

K (1/22/2008 2:27:14 PM): about our xmas party date… and that you weren’t there at the party coz you weren’t available on that date, not that they didn’t invite you…

P (1/22/2008 2:28:00 PM): welcome to reality girl…

K (1/22/2008 2:28:15 PM): that is sad… i didn’t know

P (1/22/2008 2:28:25 PM): i even asked M if they had the party… nagtext ako nung jan. 7… her birthday…

P (1/22/2008 2:28:35 PM): coz i thought, baka hindi natuloy…

K (1/22/2008 2:28:36 PM): i didn’t know that they didn’t tell you…

K (1/22/2008 2:28:38 PM): what sabi ni M?

P (1/22/2008 2:28:48 PM): at hindi sya nag-reply

P (1/22/2008 2:28:53 PM): bongga!

K (1/22/2008 2:29:00 PM): goodness!!!

P (1/22/2008 2:29:03 PM): di ba?? dodging the question

K (1/22/2008 2:29:15 PM): yeah!

K (1/22/2008 2:29:38 PM): they should’ve told u… but too late for that now… tsk, tsk

P (1/22/2008 2:29:49 PM): yup…

P (1/22/2008 2:29:54 PM): tsk, tsk

P (1/22/2008 2:30:16 PM): i was ready pa naman sana with my farewell speech…

P (1/22/2008 2:30:30 PM): kaso… yun… there’s no more point…

K (1/22/2008 2:30:59 PM): i’m a little disappointed with what happened sa party ta… sorry girl, i didn’t know…

K (1/22/2008 2:32:34 PM): i wanted to patch things up in our circle of friendship, and the best time to talk about the misunderstanding was at our annual party… i was hoping that they would open up and speak their minds about our situation…

P (1/22/2008 2:34:49 PM): i was hoping to talk to them too… pero wala eh…

P (1/22/2008 2:34:57 PM): nawalan na tuloy ako ng gana…

P (1/22/2008 2:35:04 PM): so ganyan na pala…

P (1/22/2008 2:35:15 PM): so how did i find out about the party?

P (1/22/2008 2:35:19 PM): well…

P (1/22/2008 2:35:33 PM): i saw the pictures sa friendster ni M…

P (1/22/2008 2:35:38 PM): nice noh?

P (1/22/2008 2:35:46 PM): so who are taking sides now?

K (1/22/2008 2:35:54 PM): yeah, they have pictures all over their friendster accounts

P (1/22/2008 2:35:54 PM): sorry… medyo bitter…

P (1/22/2008 2:36:07 PM): pero i thought they were better than that

K (1/22/2008 2:36:09 PM): that’s okay, i understand where you’re coming from

K (1/22/2008 2:36:34 PM): yeah! I’m shocked too na they didn’t tell you or invite you about our xmas party

P (1/22/2008 2:36:45 PM): hindi tlga…

P (1/22/2008 2:36:50 PM): hay naku…

P (1/22/2008 2:37:00 PM): you should read my blog at prinz.i.ph

P (1/22/2008 2:37:12 PM): nandun na saloobin ko about the matter

P (1/22/2008 2:37:35 PM): wait,they told you ba na i was invited to the party?

K (1/22/2008 2:37:52 PM): i don’t remember

P (1/22/2008 2:37:58 PM): hmmm

K (1/22/2008 2:38:22 PM): i guess not, we were pretty much doing the "kumustahan"

P (1/22/2008 2:38:48 PM): ahhhh… some friends you’ve got…

K (1/22/2008 2:39:21 PM): oh dear, i’m sorry!

P (1/22/2008 2:39:22 PM): can you tell them, na lalo lang nila pinalala yung situation bcoz of what they did…

P (1/22/2008 2:39:28 PM): too much bullsh*t kc!

P (1/22/2008 2:39:53 PM): i even greeted all of them pa nung new year including D!

P (1/22/2008 2:40:00 PM): haaay

K (1/22/2008 2:40:24 PM): haaaay!

K (1/22/2008 2:40:35 PM): nag-reply c D saimo?

P (1/22/2008 2:41:24 PM): nope

P (1/22/2008 2:41:36 PM): haay naku.. ayoko na mag-effort!

P (1/22/2008 2:41:40 PM): it’s pointless

K (1/22/2008 2:41:49 PM): oh

K (1/22/2008 2:43:01 PM): i can’t speak for them, pero sana there will come a time n magka-one on one kita gabos, para magka-igwa pang hope n maayos in time ang situation

P (1/22/2008 2:43:37 PM): hay, i doubt that… they’re stuck in an era where all they care about are the happy times…

P (1/22/2008 2:44:02 PM): they don’t wanna deal with the sad or trying times

P (1/22/2008 2:44:11 PM): kaya sana… they grow up…

P (1/22/2008 2:44:16 PM): for their sake

K (1/22/2008 2:44:22 PM): maybe things will change for the better… I’m still hopeful

P (1/22/2008 2:44:34 PM): haaay…

P (1/22/2008 2:44:42 PM): let’s hope you’re right

K (1/22/2008 2:44:45 PM): we just all need to reconnect

K (1/22/2008 2:45:03 PM): yeah, let’s hope I’m right…

I was gonna let it go, eventually forget about it, but with what they’ve done… they actually managed to make things worse! Bravo! I applaud them for that!

Here I was, thinking I was actually being a brat but in reality, they are the ones acting really childish! I mean, why would they not invite me? M could have not sent that message – inquiring when I’ll be back in Naga so that they can plan the party, but no… she had to send it. In a way, it was an invitation but not a formal one.

 How can I be stupid enough to actually think that there’s something worth saving in this friendship? Now I am p*ssed!

 How can they say that they’re just there for me when in fact they’re actually not! Ha! Some friends you’ve got K! After what just transpired, I am really better off without them.

 Were they afraid of a confrontation that’s why they didn’t inform me about the party? Are they scared that they can’t take what I would have to say about them? Yup! I would have told them exactly what I have in mind! That they’re all full of crap! They made me believe that they’re my friends and that they’re completely neutral about the whole fight thing! Well, bullsh*t! Bullsh*t! BULLSH*T!!! I’m sorry that I even believed that crap!!! Stupid!!! They don’t deserve me… they even don’t deserve any good friends for that matter! They may or may not have a good excuse for not inviting me, after all, I did leave the group, but here’s the thing… if they really want to make things right again, they would have made an effort. Now I am sick and tired of all these sh*t!

What do you have to say for yourselves? YV? JP? JB? MS? DA? What? What? What’s the matter? Cat got your tongue?! You’re gonna hide in your own little corner again like filthy little rats? And you call yourselves my friends?! GROW UP people! You are all a disgrace!!! You all disgust me!!!

You have messed with the wrong girl… now… feel my wrath upon all of you!!!