my plea

just when you thought nobody cares… somebody actually does! boohoo…

oh well, life is a b*tch and we’re all f*cked up one way or another… this week has been a week of pursuing a whole new path… from which my future is still uncertain… eyeing that silver lining… coz who knows? it might be my ticket to salvation! call me desperate or simply pitiful… i really do need a job… and i for sure HE knows that i badly need one, but i do think he wants me to suffer a bit. after all, you can’t have everything you want unless you really deserve it right? hmmm… thus the dilemma…

adding up to the drama is the fact that i work with people who are my friend’s relatives, so whatever it is that i do or haven’t done gets announced within their family circle, and frankly i don’t want my friend and her family being caught in the middle of all this bullsh*t…

so there i was, having a peaceful dinner and my friend told me she just got scolded by her cousin because i wasn’t informing the freaking office as to my whereabouts… awwww… i didn’t know they were that concerned… much less care where i was… hmmm… who knows? they might actually miss me, coz they really can’t figure out how to use microsoft excel! damn these people!

this week has been spent undergoing interviews, exams, and panel interviews for PAL, so i really can’t tell them exactly where i was, right? if things will turn for the worse, i think i’d rather go to the nearest call center and apply… goodness! i can’t take this anymore! but i did inform them that i was sick and i can’t come to the office. why would they always turn it into something that i did — is such a horrible thing? like i’m being such an irresponsible brat or something? which is soooo not true! see… the people i work with? it is definitely torture and i’ll probably kill myself if i stay longer… dammit! suddenly, my work isn’t that exciting anymore…

insanity taking over… i might turn into sweeney todd! god forbid!