bullcr*p!

november 27, 2007

Sooner or later it’s gonna boil down to this, I knew it! People talk behind your back and office politics will eventually get the best of you. You got nobody else except yourself and of course you can’t trust anybody at this point. I would have to lay it all on the line eventually but I feel that this isn’t the right time. I may choose to speak my mind or not but either way, I am still fighting a loosing battle. Honestly, I feel like everyone is bullshitting me, no offense to those who mean me well but I do think it is rather unfair that they judge me after hearing just one side of the story. I really don’t care what they think but they should have known better. My behavior or rather decision to stay mum is really my own way of dealing with the situation. How in the world would I be able to redeem myself when there’s already a pre-conceived notion of who I am or of what I did? Is that what you call just?! Life isn’t fair, I get that. And as they say, that’s work, you have to deal with it. Yeah, but is it even worth it to stay when all you see are condescending eyes watching your every move? Waiting for another mistake, waiting for you to mess up?

Yup… too bad for me coz I had this misunderstanding with the boss’ pet… yeah right… my co-worker is good at what she does, no question about that… but treating me like I’m some idiot and resulting to blaming me for all the bad things that was done, well screw you! I do respect you because of your dedication for work and your flexibility but with people skills? I don’t think so. You’re always misunderstood as they always say, but I have been patient with you long enough. I am burning bridges, and I wish you well. I can be civil but that is all there is to it. As for the rest who think they’re better, well, that is your opinion and I respect that.

One of my bosses talked to me yesterday and she was like she doesn’t see me in the picture out of the overflow of projects coming in. Well, how do you like that? Would you want to stay after someone tells you that right in your face? They know I have potential and also the fact that they need people in this company, so now they’re asking me if I still wanna do events or should I just concentrate on the new business, meaning I am my own call center. Calling and convincing potential clients to take a few minutes of their time and have us do a presentation. Yup! Way too exciting job in store for me, it is such an intellectually stimulating work! Crap! I really need to find a new job!