misery mondays

november 12, 2007

i really could care less if they don't include me in any of the projects, i'm leaving anyway… you won't see me anymore next year! good riddance to everyone! i'm not really in good terms with my co-worker, but we maintained being civil to each other.. i don't talk to her unless i really have to… coz i ain't got a word to say to her…

i love to stay invisible… less work… less pressure… i'd rather stay in my own world… my autistic self taking over again… haha!

the way i see it, i'm not really cut out for this job. i'm moving on everyone! i'll bid you all farewell in a few months. thanks for the memories!

i'm ranting again… what else is new? i don't really need their pity… they can laugh all they want… make fun of me endlessly… i don't care! coz in the end, i'll have the last laugh! and you all will still be stuck with each other! good luck!!! 

i'm really not liking where i am right now… is it me? or is it just monday syndrome talking? i despise every work related bull crap there is! pardon my language but the intensity of what i'm feeling is way beyond bull crap and all that shit!

indeed i am feeling hellish! how long has it been that i was actually looking forward to going to work? hmmm… let me think… since after tarlac… there's no more hope… no more silver lining… no more… i feel like everyone's against me! haha! love it! kill me if you dare! let's put ourselves out of misery then! i wanna shout! scream until my vocal chords can no longer take the strain!

but life is as it is… nothing to do except live it… bull shit! to hell with everyone! two more hours and i'm outta here! rarr! i hate mondays! i really do!!! 

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november 5, 2007 

counting sheeps… feeling sleepy… i finally hit the sack at 3am this morning! and i got racoon-like eyes already… sometimes i ask myself… is going through all this crap worth it? is it? i don't even know the answer to that question… as i fight the urge to sleep, a deep slumber is rather tempting. again, i ache for the bed… SLEEP! gotta have some sleep! keeping a happy disposition for this week, or rather this day is freakin difficult! 3 hours and counting before the work day ends… i wish i have adam sandler's remote control in the movie 'CLICK'… can i just skip this day and fast track on my new job?! unless i find myself one… help me! for the long weekend, i busied myself with job hunting online. i can't will myself to search for jobs by personally submitting and passing on my resumes in companies because i don't have that luxury… meaning, no time for that because i'm still working in hell… misery taking over again… it is rather surreal…