just because i’m bored

i was cleaning up my bag when i came up with a piece of paper that contains my doodles and blog snippets from those boring days at the workplace.. come to think of it.. i do have a lot of those moments at the workplace.. hmmm..

-dated a few months ago-

-FRET-

worried still, qualms overheard, woes unreal, nightmares feared

as darkness fell, a shiver down my spine, feeling like hell, a suppressed whine

i dare to shout, but tears have fallen, what is this about, gloom overtaken

time aghast, misery rising, unspoken spell passed, morbidity singing

dread encompassing, deafening silence roared, sickening thuds ringing, FUCK IT! I'M BORED! 

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-dated a few months back-

-BORED-

in this dimly lit room, engulfed in quiet bliss, put on my overused headset, drowning my woes,

in random music, tunes tickling my ears, humming to myself, mouthing the words.. lip syncing.. 

a tap on my shoulder as i bobbed my head in rhythm to the music, looking behind my back

i found myself reeled back to reality — to the workplace…

damn! it's way too boring! misery strikes again.. i would likely doze off if it weren't for my music!

oh well, life's a bitch! ain't that right?

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-dated on a misery monday some months ago-

-MONDAY SICKNESS-

monday sickness kicking in so damn hard! that it, as a matter of fact, hurts! ouch! makes me wish that i should have stayed home and slept the whole damn day! i should be lying around on the bed and catching up on lost sleep..

i ache for the bed, the pillows, the blanket.. i long to doze off as i watch television.. drowning my woes for a few hours of sleep..

it is way too boring.. i pity myself.. i could be doing something productive instead of torturing myself during idle moments.. i'm dizzy and i feel sleepy.. stifling a yawn.. what else can i do?

aaaaarrrggghhhh!! i hate this! i really hate this! music as my refuge helps only a little bit..

if boredom can kill, then i would have been a mere memory now.. a free spirit roaming around..

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-dated august 14, 2007-

the date… which reminds me, today's the month-sary of the hunnies — ariane and raphii.. oh well..

my thoughts linger… last night was fun… me and ariane sang our lungs out, a mini concert, i believe, at unit 2108… haha… unleashing our vocal prowess in the process, i wonder if we were good… hehe… our two spectators, namely joyz and bax barely noticed… they were busy watching CSI on tv… haha…

it was fun… loads of fun! i wanna do it again! oohh… we're gonna clean the house tonight… shit! i hate it! 

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-dated OCT. 30, 2007-

misery unfolds… it is slowly dawning on me that i'm starting to hate my job… yes, i get to travel but my job has its downsides… i just had enough, i mean… i have put up with a lot of things already and i'm losing patience! being an underdog doesn't necessarily mean enduring all the crap! duh?! i'm not your freakin' slave! and i won't always be around to absorb all the blame! i'm leaving soon and you all can't stop me anymore! rarr!

it even doesn't help being the youngest in the office, i mean, they don't take me seriously… i've tried… believe me, i've tried to get along with the 'gurang-ers' but they don't consider any of my opinion… it's like i'm a ghost… so there you go… if all of you can't seem to see my importance, then, to heck to all of you! i will for sure miss some of you, but that's all there is to it.. i'll be glad to leave… good riddance to all of you!

thanks for the memories! 

there are times that i'd rather work at home… where i can really think.. where there's no one that would eye me down… i'd really like to think that we all are equal but others still think that they're superior and i can't really blame them… but… hello?! you all went through what i'm going through, and it's not an excuse that you give me a hard time since you've been through hell when you were my age! damn! (sigh…)

i wanna go home! i'm in freaking hell! help me! save me! wait, i can save myself pala… i'm not the one that needs saving… they are… rarr!