bullcr*p!

november 27, 2007

Sooner or later it’s gonna boil down to this, I knew it! People talk behind your back and office politics will eventually get the best of you. You got nobody else except yourself and of course you can’t trust anybody at this point. I would have to lay it all on the line eventually but I feel that this isn’t the right time. I may choose to speak my mind or not but either way, I am still fighting a loosing battle. Honestly, I feel like everyone is bullshitting me, no offense to those who mean me well but I do think it is rather unfair that they judge me after hearing just one side of the story. I really don’t care what they think but they should have known better. My behavior or rather decision to stay mum is really my own way of dealing with the situation. How in the world would I be able to redeem myself when there’s already a pre-conceived notion of who I am or of what I did? Is that what you call just?! Life isn’t fair, I get that. And as they say, that’s work, you have to deal with it. Yeah, but is it even worth it to stay when all you see are condescending eyes watching your every move? Waiting for another mistake, waiting for you to mess up?

Yup… too bad for me coz I had this misunderstanding with the boss’ pet… yeah right… my co-worker is good at what she does, no question about that… but treating me like I’m some idiot and resulting to blaming me for all the bad things that was done, well screw you! I do respect you because of your dedication for work and your flexibility but with people skills? I don’t think so. You’re always misunderstood as they always say, but I have been patient with you long enough. I am burning bridges, and I wish you well. I can be civil but that is all there is to it. As for the rest who think they’re better, well, that is your opinion and I respect that.

One of my bosses talked to me yesterday and she was like she doesn’t see me in the picture out of the overflow of projects coming in. Well, how do you like that? Would you want to stay after someone tells you that right in your face? They know I have potential and also the fact that they need people in this company, so now they’re asking me if I still wanna do events or should I just concentrate on the new business, meaning I am my own call center. Calling and convincing potential clients to take a few minutes of their time and have us do a presentation. Yup! Way too exciting job in store for me, it is such an intellectually stimulating work! Crap! I really need to find a new job!                   

hellish november

Finally! The month of November is nearly coming to an end. It has been hell I tell you! My life is such a bore that I’d rather be somewhere else! Monday syndrome is kicking in so damn hard! I’d love to wish that it is Friday already! I’m looking forward to weekends! These are actually my favorite days of the week for this whole freaking month! I never really expected that I’d be experiencing Halloween for the whole month, more like a nightmare! So that’s why I don’t even feel to be a bit festive for the coming month – the holidays! I know I should be feeling a bit excited – the season of giving, of gifts, of merry-making, of being with the family and people you love… but no… I’m not really feeling it…

When I’m at work, I’d rather be at home… job hunting! Yup! You read it right… I have finally had enough with the work I have! Just like in the movie, The Devil Wears Prada, most people would think that the job I have is really something. Like people would kill for this job, I’d like to think so before, but now… I would die if I don’t leave soon.

I have had better days, but this has been the worst! AAArrgghhhh!!! I am done! I would no longer submit myself to discrimination and other stuff like that! I know I am one of the youngest employees but I still need to be respected. Some may not take me seriously because I’m too young, what the ****?! What is age?! It’s just a number right?! It doesn’t actually define who you are! My opinion or what I know is as important as yours!!! As far as I know, this is a collective effort! Employees need to work hand in hand towards progress. Unfortunately, I don’ t see that now.  I have lost interest. They don’t really need me here and if they fire me today, I’d tell them “You can’t fire me, coz I quit!”… yeah, like a line in a movie… I am not going to stay in a place that doesn’t take me seriously, that all they see are other people’s mistakes, that they are above everyone else.

Sheesh… grow up people! This isn’t grade school or junior high! You should be leading good examples for us, for the younger generation! Good thing I didn’t choose to emulate their actions.

Office politics is really something! People would go great lengths just to be on top! Oh well, that’s just my opinion. They can do anything they want. After all, it is their life. I just wish they wouldn’t mess up mine! Rarr!!!

bridal bliss

nope! i'm not gonna get married anytime soon, but i know someone who will be!

the party of five had been tasked to organize a bridal shower for raphii and ron's lovely cousin, mitz! spearheaded by ron herself, we thought of interesting activities, games and decorations for the shower!

the shower was held at the ritz function hall last night, november 22, 2007.

kinky underwear cutouts did the trick and the guests were amazed! a collective effort of the party of five, the bride-to-be and her mom loved the cutouts so much that they're gonna bring it back to the states with them! damn! how we all wished that we were one of those cutouts! haha!!!

balloons were shaped like d*cks to add up to the theme, the cake was made by kink cakes and it was lovely! haha! with boobies showing off! we all loved it! give aways were cookies shaped like underwear (panty).

we all had a blast, the party of five even had a special number which was a bit "disastrous", but we managed to pull it off! haha!!! mitz and her mom even danced with us! loved it! 

it was fun! a bit haggard during the whole preparation process, but it was all worth it! mitz and her mom couldn't thank us enough… we had fun as well! we just had a great time laughing!

POF! mission accomplished! what's next?!

SURREAL

And here I go again… ranting… I guess it is contagious or it might be an epidemic waiting to burst… haha! Or my life is just full of crap lately thus the crappy attitude… haha! Not to mention a severe headache throbbing in my head… I feel nauseous! And my hyperacidity kicking in! Rarr! This is not my day!

SURREAL (mic night)

We went to the album launch of Migs, one of Raphii’s buddies last Friday. Yup! Miguel Escueta, the one who brought us hits like “Falling Away” and “Isipin”. It was held at Eastwood Plaza and of course we were there to support him. He may or may not know us but we went there to give him some support. In total fairness, he’s a really good artist. He writes his own songs and makes his own music. And his songs are great too! He also sang cover songs of Coldplay and even brought the house down with Mr. Brightside!  We all sang along! It was so much fun!

Although the weather wasn’t that cooperative, still the show must go on! He gave out a total performance and even went ballistic with his last song! That gave us all a laugh! Haha!

Right after the show, we went backstage to congratulate the rock star. With Raphii and his friends leading the way, we congratulated him for a job well done. In return, he gave each of us girls a peck on the cheek, and I could instantly feel Joyce blushing! Haha! After that moment, we (Joyce and I) caught each others’ eye and mouthed the word – “SURREAL!” Mind you, we weren’t really that close with Migs, I guess he was just exuberant at that very moment. Joyce intends to buy his album and have it personally signed by Migs himself. Haha! Surreal!

Then we went to Temple to show some support as well to Kass, another friend of Raphii who’ll be spinning at the bar. Unfortunately, when we got there, Kass’ spinning performance already transpired. So we just grabbed some food and caught up with the latest buzz. We then proceeded inside Temple to party! And we did party! We danced the night away! It was so much fun! Who would have known that Tammy and Roselle had exceptional dancing skills?! Haha! We had so much fun! And the boys (Raphii’s friends) were already wasted from all the booze they kept on taking! Haha!

Temple was okay but the DJ sucked! I mean, his songs or remixes weren’t jiving with each other! Duh?! But we danced anyway since there wasn’t anything to do… it was fun! We adjourned at almost 3am.

SURREAL (encore)

A month ago I was invited to be a part of SMART’s new commercial, with my very own boss volunteering me for the job. Since it was our client, I really couldn’t say no so I agreed. It was a new experience, acting… yup! With just a short line to deliver, it took me several takes to really get it! Ad there was this exuding emotions through your eyes… I was like… what?! Damn! After that, there was a photo shoot! Damn! What in the world?! Mind you, I’m really not a model or an actor… I am rather not good at those things! But I smiled anyway, faking it and all that stuff! Acting happy and laughing like a mad person! Haha! So it was a challenge to pull it off.

Just last week, a friend of mine sent me an SMS telling me that she just saw the commercial! Damn! I wasn’t able to catch it on tv so I didn’t know how to react. All she said was that I was really pretty and it was close up (like my face filled the screen)! Haha! Until Saturday, my friends back in Naga kept on sending me messages, asking me if I was the one in the commercial. So I said yes. Haha! I got good feedback from my friends and it was flattering! Still I was not able to see it yet. I even told my relatives and they kept on teasing me that I might not be actually on camera instead I was situated behind the camera! Haha! Good one! Night time came and we were all watching PBB on tv… the commercial flashed on screen and I was like, “Hey! That’s me on TV!” ; and they were like, “That’s you on TV!”

Surreal!!! I didn’t get to pay much attention to it because it took a while to sink in! There it was… the SMART commercial! I look skinny on tv though! Damn! And my family were really happy, specially my mom! So proud of her daughter! Haha! Even my dad! They instantly told our relatives that I was indeed in the commercial! Haha! Talk about breaking news!!!

Sunday came and more friends inquired if I was really the one in the commercial! Haha! They can’t believe it! Haha!!! They were like asking for my autograph! Damn! It was just a one-time thing! It’s not that of a big a deal! But I guess to some, it is…

SURREAL (aftermath)

Tuesday came and I’m off to work… my co-workers still can’t get enough of it and asked if I was the one in the commercial… again, it’s not a big deal! They were like: “Artistahin ka na!”, “Pahingi ng autograph!”, “Talaga? May commercial ka na?!”

What?! Rarr!!! I found myself the subject of every joke there is! Very good!! But it’s okay. It will pass… but they do love to tease me! Rarr!!! Some still cannot believe that I was a part of the commercial, some are now looking forward to catch it on tv! They can’t believe it because I’m usually in “autistic mode” at the office! With my table situated at the corner, I’d love to be invisible! To live in my own world where I am actually at peace with myself… music is my refuge! I love it! Meaning, I don’t talk much unless I have to… so there you go… a glimpse at my life at the work place.

Yesterday I was able to read Joyce’s blog about the album launch of Migs! Haha! Can’t help but laugh! She made a rather vivid narration of the recent event. Do check it out at her blog site: joycerica.i.ph

And now I am stuck… Is there still hope that things will get better at the office? I’d like to believe so… but with the rate things are going, this might be a hopeless case…  too bad!

tvc is out!

just received a text message from one of my good friends back in naga…

she just saw the tvc for smart wherein i got to participate in… hahaha! i haven't seen it yet so i really don't know how to react… but my friend, ann, said it was good… super close up daw… she wants my autograph na! crazy girl! maganda daw! haha! she's a friend talaga! thanks ann!! 

hopefully i get to catch it on tv soon!

*fingers crossed!*