i thought i knew… but i had no idea…

i thought i would not hear from her ever, contrary to what she had said in her post that it will be her first and last… i shall quote her on that one: "yah right"… if i was the bitch i was it would have been easy for me to chew her head off and retaliate in a manner that i myself can't control, wage war against her would have been a feisty blood bath… that would have been fun to watch… it will be nasty, gruesome, gory if i may add… i will for sure love such an idea… but, i'm not that person anymore.

enough is enough… it's amazing how people could change 360 degrees in just a short span of time… how their experiences or rather wretched experiences turn them into savage beasts that they are… how they like to gnaw and chew off other people's misery… how they like to project that they like where they are now even if it meant hurting other people… how they love to say that they're happy even if they're not… who the hell are they kidding?! who cares right?!

well, for one, i do care… but i shall not surround myself with people who feed off in making other people's lives hell… reality check, it's hell already so don't you think rubbing it in ain't such a good idea? i shall not surround myself with people that takes pleasure in making other people cringe at their presence…

truth be told, i have grown… i have had good or bad experiences and it did define me for the person i am today but i won't be stooping to such a low level… that ain't me at all… she still does wanna fight with me, have another brawl… a word war if you can call it that…

too bad, i won't give in to such a remarkably low and stupid invitation… she told me once to grow up, i guess she should be telling herself the same thing…

honestly, i am sick and tired of this whole thing… it all seemed like a joke or rather a prank… i hate how everything has turned out and how other people's lives are affected… i hate it… i really thought it was still worth saving but having read what she just posted… it has SARCASM painted all over it… yes, we were friends and i'd like to think that we still are but this is where i draw the line… she has called me a lot of things that i'm not and it may take me a while to forgive her but sadly, i won't be able to forget it…

i'd like to wish that she goes to hell for all i care, but no… i'm not gonna do that… i got class and i'd like to think that i've matured over the years… instead, i'd wish her luck in her life, and may she find her true happiness..

and as for me, i'll go on my own way… maybe, it's best this way…