2012: Sanity Check

Four months into the year, and I feel like a mess. I should be getting my act together, and work on a promising future. Future? Do I even have one? (Of course! Self-pity doesn’t suit me… now, moving on…)

I feel like I’m stuck. The company had just been acquired by a multi-national conglomerate and I should be celebrating! Apparently not, cause truth be told, I have no idea what’s in store for me. Should I be worried or should I jump for joy because we have been saved? Aren’t we? Seriously, I should be working out an entire back up plan, in case all of this blows over in our faces, and we are caught in a downward spiral. Lord, please be kind!

My working environment literally and figuratively needs a makeover. I am sick and tired of the plastics that hover around the work place. The inequality of it all gets to me and I would just spontaneously combust! My superior clearly has no idea on how to take matters into her own hands, even if it meant insubordination from other lowly colleagues. Respect is earned, I get that. But doesn’t your position already demands that? I guess, if you let people treat you with such disrespect then it just clearly loses that particular edge your title/position holds. You have to draw the line yourself. 

I feel like I’m in the middle of a high school drama that is getting too old as time goes by. People should be professional, especially working people! I do not go to work just to gossip and tell tales of my oh-too-classy life, I go to work to be productive and actually do my job for which I am getting paid. Why can’t they just grow up? Would there ever be an end to this delusional play? If I wanted drama, I can just go and watch TV series or reality shows, I for sure do not need any of that in the work place!

I may be going insane… but try to live my life for a day and you’ll get what I mean. I am pretty sure of that!

Still, I hope for the best. Although it doesn’t hurt to expect for the worst too.

So far, my neurons are still working, and I can still think clearly. But I fervently pray: let this stressful drama die already!

2011: Hysterical Pandemonium

Ah yes! 2011 was a year of turmoil, mixed emotions and head over the top stress! Could I emphasize more on the STRESS?! Yup, like things couldn’t go as you would have want to, but there it was. Still, a lot of happy moments had been made and that’s the only silver lining I had for that year.

Particularly, latter part of the year was literally mayhem! Half of the working population in the company I’ve been working for had been axed, and we had to cover for them just to keep the company afloat. Felt like working non-stop, seven (7), yup, seven days a week, and I’m not kidding! I don’t know which was worse, working my ass off so that I can “help out” and “volunteer” because the company needs us, or the fact that I was overworked and deeply stressed, while upper management simply basked in the serenity of their offices and have their days off like nothing wrong has happened! I mean, hello?! We didn’t sign up for slavery did we?

To cut the story short, those two months of “volunteer” work has been relentless and I was drained to the core. It didn’t help that most of my co-workers who’d been axed were my closest friends, and it’s just sad that they get treated this way. I wish I could have done more for them, but I wasn’t given the opportunity because of this “volunteer” work we “supposedly” signed up for. 

Now, moving on to the brighter part of my year: I get to go to SINGAPORE for my birthday week! Woohoo! Spent almost a week in Singapore with Nicky! We stayed at Bax and I just fell in love with the city! I mean, commuting was never stressful. We never get lost, people speak in English, although with various accents that made it hard to understand, but still, English! And everywhere we go, there’s always a Filipino lurking around.

The place was clean, there are a lot of places to explore! It was one of the best birthdays I ever spent! And the $1 ice cream is to die for! I sometimes wake up and crave for that dessert! Ooooh, just thinking about it makes my mouth water! There’s a lot to see in SG! Singapore Flyer, Merlion, Sentosa, Universal Studios, Parks, Bugis, Esplanade, and a whole lot more. I would definitely love to come back!

That’s not all, Bax had recently gotten engaged to her long time boyfriend! Life can’t get any better! We were all thrilled! Finally! We predicted a happy and succesful married life for both and they are getting married on December 2012! Can’t wait! Eeeeeep!

And my BOF (best of friend) just gave birth to a baby boy! No, the American citizen lad had given us a visit over the holidays for his christening. I was chosen to be one of the godmothers and I couldn’t be more thrilled! Bax and Deej were in attendance too! It was like, a mini reunion for the sisterhood! Good times! More like great times! It was the best way to spend the rest of the year, in the company of my second family: my friends! It was a nice way to detach myself from work and de-stress from all the drama in the office.

let’s get it on my bunny rabbit! hello 2011!

seriously, what have i been doing in 2010?!

i have neglected my blogging duties! a shame! there’s no excuse for what i’ve done!

but, i’ll make up for it… the year that was… or rather the highlights of 2010:

january 2010: ariane just got married and celebrated her birthday bollywood style! had that shanti shanti effect on all of us! clearly a great way to start the year, and then team bacolod! finally, we were able to visit nicky’s humble abode or rather her hacienda! loved the short vacation! we’re definitely going back!

february 2010: what happened in feb again? gosh! i have no idea! not much i guess… will get back to you on this one! oohhh… we got lost in freaking tagaytay! i swear to god! tooo scary for me! thinking happy thoughts and tryingnot to panic at the same time!

march 2010: okay… another fail… i can’t recall any significant happening…

april 2010: spent holy week with my best workmates and we’re working! my 2nd year in pal had been stressful yet fun! a week in nagaland was the highlight of this month… nothing beats fresh air and the laid back feel of home!

may 2010: hitting the beach with my girlfriends… gone to punta fuego and stayed in batangas… or was that in may? hmmm… my memory fails me… tsk tsk tsk… yes it was in may! tried the zipline in tagaytay! woohooo!

june 2010: we’re roughing it in zambales! more drama = more fun! haha! can’t get enough! looks like we were all reeled back in an episode of sweet valley high… sooo high school! haha! also went to avilon zoo and we got soaked in the rain! fun! fun! fun! 

july 2010: canton party, lu’s birthday, the spicy finger outburst… so much drama, i swear! but on a lighter note, my passport just got stamped! my very first ever travel abroad with the sisterhood! i love hkg! i’m definitely coming back there!

august 2010: bax left for singapore… and raphii left for boston…

september 2010: back to nagaland for the fiesta! celebrated my 27th birthday with the best people! ariane left for boston..

october 2010: left to manage shoeology… dear lord help me! exhaustion, confusion… stressed self! good thing joyce is here! team halloween party was awesome! loved it!

november 2010: booked on weekends for shoeology bazaars! trying so hard to be superwoman… not an utter failure though, but hey, i tried! all was well, or most of it! haha! the highlight was my vacation at cagayan de oro with the team! conquered white water rafting and the longest zipline! yey! super fun!

december 2010: more bazaars! barely have time to breathe! more stress, but hey, that what makes life more challenging! gotta have my daily dose of stress! spent the last day of the year with great friends and family!

so now, spending my last night in naga… my home… i’m feeling too lazy to go to work tomorrow but i still have to do it! i have an early flight tomorrow so i better get to sleep! i’m praying for a good weather tomorrow and for a great 2011 ahead!

2NE6

if you’re korean, and might think i just typed it wrong, well think again. i can’t think of a fitting title for my blog so i borrowed it from a korean girl group named 2NE1.

date: september 14, 2009, time: 11:26pm… by the time i post this i will be turning 26…

september 15, my birthday. another year has passed and here i am, blogging away. this is my second time posting a blog in like months. i haven’t had the time to blog, share my thoughts, and just rant away… well, for the most part i was just too busy playing different games on facebook! seriously, i am hooked!

another year added to my age, 26. i am not superstitious or anything, and i’ve done research, there isn’t anything much on the number 26 so i can’t really give you a trivia on it. 

11:30pm — already? time is running too fast! too fast! i’m not ready to give up on 25 yet! haha! 

11:33pm — still contemplating on what to blog about. my head is full, ideas swimming in my mind, figuring out what i would do on my birthday. morning would be for errands like paying the bills, and looking for toy tiaras for my birthday celebration at the office scheduled on friday. if time will permit, i need to drop by the church to hear mass or just say a little prayer for myself and family (friends included). then, do a bit of grocery, buy myself a new umbrella, and treat myself to a big serving of ice cream! yum!

11:39pm — my housemate just arrived fresh from cebu! and here i thought, i was home alone! haha! welcome back housemate! we missed you!

11:45pm — just had my super late dinner while watching tv and at the same time discussing kanye west’s outlash at the vma’s with my housemate.

11:55pm — just had the inkling to wash the dishes after consuming my late dinner.

12:01am — september 15! birthday! my birthday! my housemate greeted me a happy birthday! thanks!

and then greetings in facebook came pouring in, greetings thru text messages went through also. to all those who went out of their way to greet me and wish me well, thank you so much!

to ariane, joyce, deej, sarah and paula: you were the first ones who made me smile, laugh even, on my day! mwah!

1:43am — post to be continued… i still need to get some sleep! birthday girl signing off for the time being.

i leave you with a song that i had been singing since this weekend… fron the tv series GLEE…

01 Don’t Stop Believin’ (Glee Cast Version) (Glee Cast)

26

in two days time i’ll be turning 26… 

i can’t believe it! time just whizzes past me and there’s no stopping it… i’ll be turning 26, one of my closest friends is getting married this year, someone i know will be having her third child, my niece is turning four, a friend of mine with whom i knew when she was still in middle school is now turning 18 (they’re all growing up sooo fast!), my officemate who is 22 wants to get married by the time she’s 26 (wtf?)… okay… time is freaking fast! it scares me! and yeah, the fact that i’m still enjoying singlehood kind of worries my family (close friends included). i can’t say that i’m not worried about it either, but then again, it’s not that big of a deal if i still am single, as far as i’m concerned i’m enjoying my life — problems and all.

career ain’t so bad, but then again recession is a b*tch… we are all affected by it… even multinational companies, there’s no escaping it. tsk… tsk… but i am still thankful that i have my job, and my officemates with whom i have grown to love in the 17 months i have started working.

my friends are the bomb! i won’t be able to survive if it weren’t for their support, love, care and everything in between. they have put up with all my b*tchy-ness, my moody phases, and sometimes crappy attitude. thank you for accepting all my imperfections. feel free to strangle me if i go too far! hehe!

the family that i love so much! always there for me, though i get to visit them only a few times each year. you gave me strength and motivation to do good in life, and persevere no matter how hard life gets. thank you!

so there, turning 26 ain’t so bad… at least i can say that i’m doing something with my life, enjoying it as much as i can, accepting what comes with open arms, and just living life.